short entry but i was looking back on my older blog posts and...
i was very... i don't even know the word to describe it.
but lemme tell myself that there's no need to compare myself to 'popular girls' who have 'more fun than me' because don't worry my dear jesse everyone's equal.
i forgot to mention this but when i came back to school on the first day, my friends all exclaimed 'jesse!' and some flocked to me and started patting my hair: jamilla, guy, etc. and that simple thing made me feel appreciated and wanted and loved and that alone is a beautiful feeling that overcomes my silly wishes about myself trying to be 'out there' because i've already made wonderful friends and i shouldn't take that for granted.
but it's okay. it's okay to want to get to know new people, it's just not okay to put myself down for not being able to yet. that's the key word: yet.
it's okay jesse, it's okay.
as katie said, 'your determination will get you places' and here's to hoping it really will.
entry 17, sit up straight and have an amazing day any readers of mine.